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| not going to lie... |
[27 Jun 2009|12:44pm] |
pretty bummed about mj.
grew up with him.... "billie jean" was always my jam.
ugh.
feeling blah.
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| this stress over school is an alien feeling... |
[23 May 2009|11:24pm] |
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i don't want to be *that* asshole... the one that is like oh man, school is so easy for me blah blah blah.
i definitely studied much less than other students when i was in high school. in some cases, it had a direct correlation to the grades i received... i hated math & i didn't study & i barely passed it. whatever. Everything else was so easy... it was ridic. I was the person who could read something once and remember it for a test. I was so used to getting A's in Latin, English, History, Religion...
& it continued in college. A's in French, A's in English. A's in History... but I also started pulling awesome marks in Poly Sci, Philosophy, Astronomy, Biology, Algebra, Communications, Art... whatever. i'm just going to come out and say that I enjoy school.
however.
This whole "Oh I'm going to be a doctor, so let me catch up on Chemistry, Physics, and Calculus" thing is bullshit. I've never had to work so hard in my LIFE to understand concepts, remember them, study for them... but. I'm still fucking shocked because i'm pretty sure I still do less work than other kids in my classes.
All I want is an A in calculus. I don't care if I get a B in chem or a B in physics. All I need is to impress dreamy mr calculus professor. I'll never see him again... & it really shouldn't matter... but I am so enamoured of that guy... his beard is so lovely... alsdkjfldsk.
So yeah, this is kind of a bullshit update. basically, i've been sick since coachella...coughing, headaches, body aches, sore throat... it's been over a month. i started to feel a little better while taking antibiotics but i seem to have trouble kicking this sickness completely. i'm not sure if my immune system hates me because of late nights and early mornings... usually i stay up til 1ish, 2ish... wake up at 6:30 for school... and go to school until 7pm or 9 pm. on non-school days, i definitely lay in bed much longer. erratic sleep schedules, zero motivation, whatev. it's a normal semester...
the past two weeks, i've stayed up past midnight almost every night DOING HOMEWORK... sometimes til 1 or 2 am studying chemistry or calculus or physics. i have had zero social life the past two weeks... which is pathetic because i don't have much of one as it is.... my graphing calculator has become my only friend.
i have two hard finals on tuesday. back to back. i have a study session on fucking MEMORIAL DAY, so no beer pong party at the cemetery. FML. oh yeah, in addition to still being sick... i am also bleeding and dying of cramp attacks. FMLx2.
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| miss u, <3 u, nevr 4get. |
[27 Apr 2009|11:57pm] |
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remember when people used to update their LJs on the regular? yeah. i miss those days.
okay. i've blogged about coachella on myspace, so i'll kind of cut and paste and go into a bit more detail here i think...
( you make me touch your hands for stupid reasons )
so i don't know. obviously the cure, my bloody valentine, morrissey and the killers were headliners so their sets were really amazing... but they weren't my favourites.
nasa was really entertaining. girl talk was incredible. the djs are usually always good. over all everything was good.
Best Set: Friendly Fires/White Lies/The Presets. all for different reasons. i can't pick a favourite.
Biggest God-Fuck Bummer: Glasvegas cancelling. Million degree heat. Getting sick.
Best reason ever to come back to San Diego feeling shitty with no voice: Coachella Weekend.
in other news, i am addicted to Twitter. more specifically, Calvin Harris' Twitter. i am ttly crshng on him soooo hard. but he gets all the girls. woh woh.
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| blahhhh |
[12 Mar 2009|10:24pm] |
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surgery is bullshit.
my scars are healing alright though.
clarityx10 was pretty sick, bro.
iPod scrobbling is sort of bullshit, too.
pretty bummered about missing cut copy.
hanging out with grandpa was entertaining.
finding out i might be part asian was interesting... and explains a lot.
i need to start studying for the MCAT. ughh.
why is mr calculus so hot? his beard is so awesome. i wish he would dress more UMM-like though.
i am fucking tired.
internet hiatuses are getting easier. i guess this is growing up.
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| ughhhhh wtf. |
[22 Jan 2009|02:08am] |
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elliptical machines = torture. wtf.
i think my knee is permanently fuckered... thanks softball (like 10 yrs ago)! thanks elliptical!
going to bed smelling like old people = best evar. ok not really, but whatev. tiger balm <3
it's crazy how one minute you're like "shit, who do i choose between these two dudes?" to having no choice because both dudes don't give a shit about you anymore. WOH WOHHHHHH.
i miss paul. he was mr. perfect.
staying up every night to watch adult swim = i don't know yet. it could be equal amounts of win! or fail!
school starts next week. ughhhhh.
i've noticed a trend... i like unattainable dudes. for girls that are 5s-10s, these dudes would be attainable, slumming it, even... but being a 2, makes these otherwise normal/mediocre dudes way out of my league. it sucks. because i am completely aware that these dudes are like... 4-7s at best... but they're not interested at all.
& for the most hilarious/woh woh part: being a 2 sucks, but i'm a snotty 2. the guys that ARE interested are like negative 6s and even I have standards. fuuuuck that.
apparently, i've been reading way too many street boners. thanks gavin mcinnes, your vocab has seeped into my consciousness... i wish it were your sweet moustache instead!
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| i'm so pete wentz-y. |
[10 Dec 2008|12:37pm] |
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The "Be Pete Wentz" Poetry Meme.
01. Put your music player on shuffle.
02. The first lines of twenty songs = a poem.
03. The first line of the twenty-first song = the title.
I Know It's Going To Last All Night
So faraway and so alone how could I ever take you home
I've seen your face a thousand times
In the back of my mind, a voice speaks
Oh god, hold me now.
The time has come to part
Technicolor girls
De pratar om dig via kortvåg (They talked about you via shortwave)
I walk along the avenue -
Meet me in the crowd.
You are my cutie pie, my cutie pie, yes you are
Give me a beat that i can claim
Good thieves of burning cars encircle poisoned rivers, minds and hearts
This town don't feel mine -
I think you caught me on the downslide, downturn
My friends could say,
Don't you know sometimes these things they don't work out?
These hot machine years burning time across your face
Ich binnen einen Spacer Frau.
You and i get along famously
You say it’s not what you do.
Title : [The Teenagers - Make It Happen]
[Magnetic Fields - The Way You Say Good-Night]
[Gwen Stefani - The Real Thing]
[Sparta - Red Alibi]
[Sufjan Stevens - Oh God, Where Are You Now?]
[The Stills - Interlude]
[Death Cab for Cutie - Technicolor Girls]
[Kent - Elefanter]
[A Flock of Seagulls - I Ran (So Far Away)]
[R.E.M - Shiny Happy People]
[Of Montreal - Cutie Pie]
[Junior Senior - Itch U Can't Skratch]
[Klaxons - Atlantis to Interzone]
[Deftones - Be Quiet and Drive]
[Death Cab for Cutie - Pictures in an Exhibition]
[Reggie and the Full Effect - Thanx for Stayin']
[Friendly Fires - Lovesick]
[The Blood Brothers - Feed Me To The Forest]
[Boys Noize - Frau]
[Neon Neon - I Lust U]
[The Ting Tings - Be The One]
EL OH EL OH EL OH EL OH EL.
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| plugged in and ready to fall... |
[03 Dec 2008|11:21pm] |
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ughhh.
there's something to be said for consistency.... when it's the same bullshit over & over again... you know it's coming but it doesn't cushion the blow.
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| i feel like unplugging from life for a while... |
[30 Nov 2008|09:11pm] |
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ugh. i've noticed that the internet is making me more depressed than usual.
or maybe it's just my neurotic responses to situations that make me depressed.
i don't fucking know anymore.
i feel like deleting everything.
maybe christmas time just makes me lonely. like, i want a someone to see the xmas lights with and hold hands and make foggy breath and go to the snow and drink hot cider/cocoa and wrap presents with.
but. as per usual/always/forever, i'll never have nobody never.
am i a bastard for admitting that (?):
even though people tell me i am "smart" & "awesome," i would gladly trade all the "smart and awesome" to have someone fall in love with me?
yeah. i'm pretty much a bastard.
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| survey says...!! |
[12 Nov 2008|07:51pm] |
What were you doing at 8:00 pm last night?: i was chang-ing with surst y surst. we were flipflopping on important issues like sushi deli vs city deli vs pick up steph vs helllll no vs whatever else.
Is your birthday on a holiday?: no way. it should be though.
Ever been swimming in a lake or river?: yes and yes. swimming in lake tahoe kind of sucked though...
Are you listening to music right now?: not yet...
What is your name if you spell it without the letters "e" "y" and "i"?: NCOL wtf.
Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a P?: no. i wish. !
Which TV show have you seen pretty much every episode of?: seinfeld?
Are you a morning person or a night person?: definitely a night person. effffff mornings.
Where is your cell phone?: on my bed.
What time did you go to sleep last night?: "uhh.. past 2am?" TRUTH
Do you believe that if you want something bad enough you'll get it?: sadly, experience has taught me that the aforementioned adage is totally bullshit.
Who was the last person to sleep in the same bed as you?: HAHAHAHA
What did the person you like/love last do to hurt you?: let's not even talk about this right now...
Do you know what high school your father went to?: kearney high or something
What was your last fight about?: ??
Where was your default picture taken?: in my room, i'm sure... or a bafroom OMG MYSPACE PIX FTW
Do you consider yourself a neat freak?: haha not really.
Last place you took a plane to?: hmmm. to san diego from virginia.
Have you ever been to Sea World?: yesss. it's boring. hahaha
Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?: affirmative.
Are you different now than you were six months ago?: i'm sure!
Do you usually tell people when you're mad at them?: i'm sure they can usually tell. but i don't say OMG I'M MAD AT YOU
Will this weekend be a good one?: "YES !!!!! LAS VEGAS + VEGAN RONALD'S DONUTS IN MY MOUF !! OOM NOM NOM. and hopefully booze and dancing and gamble gamble die." MORE TRUTH!
How did you feel when you woke up today?: like tired shit.
When is your birthday?: june 11.
Last person who send you a message?: on myspace? physics guy<3. txt msg? my brother.
Last person who left you a comment?: oh mans. crystal & debra.
Are you a forgiving person?: yeah usually. forgive and [don't] forget though.
Are you shy?: oh hell yes.
Have you ever walked on the beach at night?: haha yeah.
Did you ever get the chicken pox?: oh yes. i think i was like 5 or something.
Does it take a lot to make you cry?: i usually cry when i get way angry or if i watch the notebook (UGH!)
Do you tell your parents everything?: hahaha yeah riiiight.
Whens the next time you will have butterflies?: hopefully never. fuck that shit.
Last time you laughed so hard you cried?: oh god. like every day.
Will you go to college?: haha more like med school. woh woh.
When was the last time you talked to your number 1?: on myspace? my number one is my future husband, we just haven't been formally introduced yet.
Have you ever cried and didn't know why?: ohhhh yes..... hormones.
Last time you cried?: i don't know?
Do you like your name?: ehhh
Do you like being in pictures?: helll nah
Do you prefer warm or cold weather?: cold!!!!
What do you currently hear right now?: the sound of my computer fan
Do you hate anyone?: dude, i am like number one hater. but at the moment, i don't think i hate anyone in particular.
How old do you think you will be when you finally have kids?: oh god. the bio clock is ticking like crazers. i want one like now.
How much money do you have on you?: beer money<3
Is there someone on your mind that shouldn't be?: isn't there always?
Who knows the most about you?: oh man... probably debra/danielle or my brother
What made you happy last night?: listening to debra say "celray" like "chaaaalie"
Did you date anyone this past summer?: HAHAHA
How many true friends do you have?: very few.
What are you thinking about right now?: seeing mike tmrw... hahahaha
Would you have sex with the last person that texted you ?: ew. it is illegal to have sex with my brother.
Whats your middle name?: UGHHHH "Inez"
What were you doing at 10 AM?: sitting in calculus, wishing i were dead.
Could you date someone taller than you?: dude, i'm only into taller dudes.
Do you like cuddling?: sometimes. not with creepies though.
What are you supposed to be doing right now?: doing homework. woh wohhhh
What was your new years resolution?: i didn't make one.
How old will you be in 3 birthdays?: UGHHHHHHHHHH 29!
Who was the last person you hugged?: my godparents, today.
What were you doing at midnight last night?: being an emo at the bar and smoking. listening to stephanie be drunk.
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| wtf. |
[05 Nov 2008|06:13pm] |
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tired of emo bullshit over dudes who are kind of awesome but treat me stupidly.
why's it so hard to get a tallish, sort of chubby, angsty, neurotic jewish boyfriend with a sweet beard and a good singing voice?
max bemis? ? ?
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| game seven... |
[19 Oct 2008|02:30am] |
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sports sunday had better be good.
i'm looking for a chargers win and a red sox win.
physics and calculus homework = bullshit.
getting a bad case of the eems lately.
listening to red house painters doesn't help.
i dreamed about paul last night... that didn't help either.
i don't really know what to think about anything anymore.
visst känns det som att kärleken väntar...
...but not really. not now, not ever.
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| i keep singing when i speak! |
[26 Jul 2008|12:21am] |
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so yeah. comic con was geeky. armed with TWO digital cameras and a healthy case of obsessive cullen disorder... i ventured forth into the wacky world of comic fandom/anime creepies to attend the summit entertainment discussion panel. the line to get in was fucking ridiccccc. the thought of paying $ to attend some geek thing just so i could see some twilight stuff and then NOT get in was making me insanely angry and like... standing out in the SUN (!!!!!!!!!) while waiting in line was making things much much worse. i missed seeing keanu (fuuuuuck) and basically stood outside waiting to find out if i wasn't going to get in. ... ... ...
i definitely got in. i was seated far in the back, but i was innnn. blah blah blah. robert pattinson is sooooo sooooo sooooo cute. he was acting weird and couldn't answer a question coherently but who cares?! cedric/edward/spunk ransom. sooo cute.
i got a dope Domo plush. as in domokun - the brown cute guy. yay! and then i was like effff this shhhhh and met up with danisaur for sliders and soda. then we gatecrashed the vegan mac&chz party at Chez Surstay and basically caused a ruckus until the landlord came knocking.
all in all, good times.
i don't like that the tops of my feet got sunburned from waiting in line or that being in the sun that long felt like standing around in hell.
that being said, i am fucking exhausted.
woh woh.
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| so uh... |
[29 Jun 2008|11:07pm] |
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i'm pretty tired today and totally fuckered... but last night was fucking amazing.
chugging 2 disgusting miller lites, dancing like a maniac and barfing makes for fun times!
in other news, it is amazing to be unemployed! woop woop. fuck that job!
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| alone again, naturally... |
[21 Apr 2008|10:41pm] |
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remember when people used to write in their livejournals? yeah. those were the good ol' days of the internet.
now it's just myspace and youtube and whatev. facebook is pretty okay.
missing coachella because my boss is a gigantic piece of shit is pretty much a bummer.
i told stephanie that god definitely decided to take a big shit on someone this week, and that someone is me.
missing coachella, having to babysit my 24 y/o uncle because he's kind of irresponsible, having to work all week with fewer people so my workload has tripled/quadrupled... and losing love of my life.
no more secret fun time. no more changing the words to soft rock favourites on the work radio. no more oh gohs and yeah rights and politically incorrect jokes about retarded people.
seeing the love of your life walking out the door and knowing you'll never see that person again is the worst feeling. the shittiest, most awful position to be in. and you can't run after them or say anything because you're stuck at work and he doesn't know and can't know and isn't single and doesn't want to be single and blah blah blah blah blah blah blah.
fuck.
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| goodbye sleeeeep |
[17 Jan 2008|11:54pm] |
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so work pretty much makes me want to die.
seeing the most perfect guy in the world every day makes me want to die as well.
the whole being married thing is srsly stoops.
i continue to foster this misguided and impossible hope that one day he'll decide "good enough" isn't... & he'll run away with me ahahahaha. everyday i get more and more ammunition for this obsession. we get along creepy well and we're very much alike. it's not fair.
chemistry and math classes at 8 am are pretty ridic, especially when followed by a full workday. i'm not sure i'll ever get enough sleep ever again.
i definitely have guitar hero wiiiiii and i haven't even taken it out of the box because i'm always at work!
i want to go back to france. i miss my neighborhood.
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| i love you & i, i won't let myself let you go... |
[18 Sep 2007|12:06am] |
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why does he have to be perfect.. and married? wtfffff.
he's probably the most amazing male specimen evarrr.
& he's married.
married.
UGH.
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| it's done. |
[21 Jul 2007|05:57pm] |
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dude. i've never been so bummered about finishing a book.
the end of an era.
"see ya, harry!"
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| "graduancy..." |
[16 May 2007|11:06pm] |
finally graduating. yesssss.
&thengradschool. bummer.
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